Friday, September 30, 2011

taking care of buisness lol

Ok so everything is taken care of and we can proceed as normal. Dr Holman got me started on my Clomid again today and I go back in for my Mid-cycle Ultrasound 10.10.11. Last month felt like it took forever! lol. So thoughts, prayers, and good wishes would be wonderful this month. I love you all and thank you for everything!

Wednesday, September 28, 2011

Sorry

I do apologize for basically abandoning my blog for the last few weeks. We have had some crazy stuff come up and had to work thru it. We have an appt tomorrow with Dr Holman to discuss what our next step will be. I do apologize if I haven't responded to your e-mail please be patient with me. I do feel the love checking all your e-mails though and I thank you for your thought, and prayers.
I hope to have some very good news soon.

Saturday, September 17, 2011

still waiting

So i received a few e-mailed and msg's wanting to know how things are going since my last post was very vague and not coming from the best place I've ever been.
      Alan and I have both agreed to stay tight lipped on some details we are still working out. I go back into Dr Holman probably next week, I havent set the actual appointment yet.  We are confidant God is in this but we just have to wait for things to play out and make sure it will all work out ok.
   Please just continue to pray for us ad as soon as we hear something and have a for sure answer I will defiantly update.

Nicole

Thursday, September 15, 2011

Praise


His plan's never fail.


And oh how I worry.
I probably define the word worry.

Alan and I hit stump in our plans to have a child. We have been in a hard place these last few days just praying something would work out and get us through this.
We may have found our answer, we are just praying and thinking a bit more before jumping in head first.
Please just pray for us and that we make the right choice's and follows God's will.

Wednesday, September 14, 2011

Stand Strong

25 Scriptural Reasons to Not to Give Up


1. God loves me. I John 4:10 This is real love. It is not that we loved God, but that He loved us and sent His Son as a sacrifice to take away our sins.

2. My sins are definitely forgiven. Eph. 1:7 He is so rich in kindness that He purchased our freedom through the blood of His Son, and our sins are forgiven.

3. I possess His peace and His righteousness. Rom. 5:1 Therefore, since we have been made right in Gods sight by faith, we have peace with God because of what Jesus Christ our Lord has done for us. I Cor. 1:30 God alone made it possible for you to be in Christ Jesus. For our benefit God made Christ to be wisdom itself. He is the One who made us acceptable to God. He made us pure and holy, and He gave Himself to purchase our freedom.

4. I am holy and blameless in Gods sight. Col. 1:22 Yet now He has brought you back as His friends. He has done this through His death on the cross in His own human body. As a result, He has brought you into the very presence of God, and
you are holy and blameless as you stand before Him without a single fault. Eph. 1:4 Long ago, even before He made the world, God loved us and chose us in Christ to be holy and without fault in His eyes.

5. He considers me clean, whiter than snow. Psalm 51:7 Purify me from my sins, and I will be clean; wash me, and I will be whiter than snow. Isaiah 1:18 “Come now, let us argue this out,” says the Lord. “No matter how deep the stain of your
sins, I can remove it. I can make you as clean as freshly fallen snow. Even if you are stained as red as crimson, I can make you as white as wool.” I John 1:7 But if we are living in the light of Gods presence, just as Christ is, then we have fellowship with each other, and the blood of Jesus, His Son, cleanses us from every sin.

6. No one can accuse me. Rom. 8:33,34 Who dares accuse us whom God has chosen for His own? Will God? No! He is the One who has given us right standing with Himself. Who then will condemn us? Will Christ Jesus? No, for He is the One who died for us and was raised to life for us and is sitting at the place of highest honor next to God, pleading for us.

7. God has forgotten my sins, even tomorrows sins. Heb. 8:12 “And I will forgive their wrongdoings, and I will never again remember their sins.” Psalm 103:12 He has removed our rebellious acts as far away from us as the east is from the west. I John 1:9 But if we confess our sins to Him, He is faithful and just to forgive us and to cleanse us from every wrong.

8. The record of my sins and their requirements have been torn up and destroyed. Col. 2:14 He canceled the record that contained the charges against us. He took it and destroyed it by nailing it to Christs cross.

9. I am a complete, whole person. Col. 2:10 …and you are complete through your union with Christ. He is the Lord over every ruler and authority in the universe. Col. 4:12 Epaphras, from your city, a servant of Christ Jesus, sends you his greetings. He always prays earnestly for you, asking God to make you strong and perfect, fully confident of the whole will of God.

10. I am God’s handiwork. He did not make a mistake. Eph. 2:10 For we are Gods masterpiece. He has created us anew in Christ Jesus, so that we can do the good things He planned for us long ago.

11. God is for me! Rom. 8:31 What can we say about such wonderful things as these? If God is for us, who can ever be against us?

12. God will never give me up or abandon me. Heb. 13:5 Stay away from the love of money; be satisfied with what you have. For God has said, “I will never fail you. I will never forsake you.”

13. God rescues and protects me from all harm. Psalm 91:9,10 If you make the Lord your refuge, if you make the Most High your shelter, no evil will conquer you; no plague will come near your dwelling.

14. God has given his angels orders to protect His own. Psalm 91:11 For He orders His angels to protect you wherever you go.

15. Nothing and no one is able to separate me from Gods love. Romans 8:38,39 And I am convinced that nothing can ever separate us from His love. Death cant, and life cant. The angels cant, and the demons cant. Our fears for today, our worries about tomorrow, and even the powers of hell cant keep Gods love away. Whether we are high above the sky or in the deepest ocean, nothing in all creation will ever be able to separate us from the love of God that is revealed in Christ Jesus our Lord.

16. God will supply all my needs. Phil. 4:19 And this same God who takes care of me will supply all your needs from His glorious riches, which have been given us in Christ Jesus.

17. I have freedom from the slavery to sin. Rom. 6:22 But now you are free from the power of sin and have become slaves of God. Now you do those things that lead to holiness and result in eternal life.

18. I have eternal life. I John 5:13 I write this to you who believe in the Son of God, so that you may know you have eternal life.

19. I am freely given Gods grace. Eph. 1:6 So we praise God for the wonderful kindness He has poured out on us because we belong to His dearly loved Son.

20. I have been given sufficient faith as a gift from God. Eph. 2:8,9 God saved you by His special favor when you believed. And you cant take credit for this; it is a gift from God.

21. I have an advocate, a defense attorney before the Father. I John 2:1 My dear children, I am writing this to you so that you will not sin. But if you do sin, there is someone to plead for you before the Father. He is Jesus Christ, the One who pleases God completely.

22. I have the very life of God in me. Rom. 8:9-11 But you are not controlled by your sinful nature. You are controlled by the Spirit if you have the Spirit of God living in you. (And remember that those who do not have the Spirit of Christ
living in them are not Christians at all.) Since Christ lives within you, even though your body will die because of sin, you spirit is alive because you have been made right with God. The Spirit of God, who raised Jesus from the dead, lives in you. And just as He raised Christ from the dead, He will give life to your mortal body by this same Spirit living within you.

23. God will not allow me to be shaken. Psalm 55:22 Give your burdens to the Lord, and He will take care of you. He will not permit the godly to slip and fall.

24. I have strength for every situation. Phil. 4:13 For I can do everything with the help of Christ who gives me the strength I need.

25. I am a part of Gods family. Gal. 4:4,5 But when the right time came, God sent His Son, born of a woman, subject to the law. God sent Him to buy freedom for us who were slaves to the law, so that He could adopt us as His very own children.

Tuesday, September 13, 2011

Broken but Blessed

Nursing a headache and a broken heart. 
But grateful to God for all the blessings he has bestowed upon me.
Sometimes the road we think we are meant to walk is not the one God had in mind.
In the moment where the ground is ripped out from below you and you tumble towards the darkness, it's hard to remember that God is right there with arms wide open waiting to catch you.
I pray that in the light of it all God gives me a open heart, and eases the pain and fear.
We have a huge decision to make and it's not going to be easy.
But we will do our best to always follow God's Will.

I am Yours regardless of
The dark clouds that may loom above
Because You are much greater than my pain

Monday, September 12, 2011

Not fertility realted

IUI

As I post this blog I'm very nervous /excited for tomorrow. We went in for our Mid-cycle ultrasound today. I had two follicles on the right ovary measuring 28mm and 19mm, and 1 on the left measuring 17mm. Dr Holman left it up to us but said he would suggest going on and doing an IUI.CLICK HERE FOR MORE INFO ON IUI'S if your not familiar.
    Long story short I go in tomorrow @ 8:45 to drop off Alan's Sample =], and then we should do the procedure around 9:30ish. I'm so nervous, yet so excited all in one. I told my husband on one hand I'm super negative and thinking oh this will just fail like the other cycles, and on the other hand I'm super positive and thinking oh this may be the time it works...I just hope the positive side is the right side. 

Nicole

Monday, September 5, 2011

TMI POST

Ok this is a TMI post. So if your not into that stop here and don't read any further.... 








Ok for those of you still reading it's not really that big of a TMI post.
I told Alan that if we did not conceive last month that I would try Pre-Seed. If your not sure what Pre-seed is def google it but In brief it is a sperm friendly lubricant that mimics a women's fertile CM(cervical Mucus).


Now that dr has not said I have any CM issues but he said pre-seed is very useful even in women who may not have a lack of CM but that sometimes the PH balance is not right to protect the sperm. A sperm must have a PH balance of 7.0-8.5(I believe it's 8.5 it may be a little lower. Anyway to make a long story short I needs your help!
I need reviews! 
1.)Who of my friends who have suffered or are suffering with infertility have tried it? Did it work?
2.)Any side effects not listed that I should know of? 
3.)Any tips?


     Now I know alot of my family and friends who read this blog are not memebers of bloger so you cannot comment on the blog itself but as always feel free to e-mail me (lisanicolesw@gmail.com if oyu don't already have it) or msg me on facebook. Thanks!








Nicole








preparing for baby

So if you read this blog you obviously know Alan and I are desperately trying for a little one. Since we started on this journey I have picked up some little outfits, and baby things if I find them at yard sales or things like that. Well I went to the pay by the lb goodwill clerance center today and I found so many great deals.
I found 
45 outfits( both girl and boy- onsies and full outfits combined)
3 bath baby bath towels
3 bibs
and 1 little duck washcloth.
   So here's the good part that makes me (the women who doesn't yet ave children, who is out buying children clothes) a little more sane... I paid 12.35 for all of it!  In case you struggle with math as I do thats 23 cent a piece! A.K.A and amazing deal..


Just thought I would share!




Thursday, September 1, 2011

I found a post I posted over a year ago in my old blog I wanted to share.

Cycle 4

So tomorrow starts cycle 4 of Clomid. DREADING. I take cycle days 5-9 again, and then go in to the Dr the 12th for a little bit more extensive testings, and the ultrasound. I talked to one of the nurses at the office today( they are that great there), and she said Dr Holman was on vacation this week...which led to me thinking this...
what exactly do you do when your not at work when you spend 8-9 hrs a day looking at who-has...I mean really...
How do you just lay on the beach somewhere and not be like wow I haven't had to look at a who-ha all week...And then you get back and your like dang that week went by fast...

Ok sorry that's honestly what I thought...


Ok facebook games

Today I've seen so many posts saying, Blank weeks pregnant, and craving blank. I want to slap you!!
A.The second I seen it I'm freaking out like WHAT!!!??? someone else is pregnant before me!!!! (then I realized it was my 50 something year old Sunday school teacher...aka probably not happening).
B. It makes me mad. Don't ask me why because I don't know it just makes me grimace...
C.If you really want to "raise awareness" or help a Charity, donate your time, or money. Your facebook status is not helping find a cure!!