Thank you Jude

I'm blessed to have married an amazing, non-judgmental, loving, and affectionate man. Believe it or not I'm not just saying that for social media purposes lol. He has always told me I'm beautiful. I've never had a doubt that he doesn't love me the way I am but it's a different thing to really feel it. When I gave birth to Jude it was an experience like non other as all mommies know. But it was that moment I realized what beauty was. I always wrote my body off. Talked about how ugly it was ect. But Jude has changed that. My son made me love myself. He doesn't care if those pant's make me look "fat". He doesn't care how cushy my stomach is. He lays his sweet little head down on my chest and stares up with a love that cannot be replicated. When I leave a room he searches for my face. When he can't find me you can see the concern on his face. He loves his daddy, and mimi and family. But Momma is his world. I role over in the morning and there is his cute little face giving me the two tooth grin. He grabs both sides of my face and plants big sloppy lips on my cheek. He lays next to me in bed and rubs my hair or arm while I feed him. He doesn't see the chubby waist I see. He could care less about my lack of muscle tone in my arms. Surely he wouldn't care if I was 5 lbs heavier or 5 lbs lighter. I'm his mommy. For that simple fact he loves me. And because he loves me I love myself. I love this body that was able to grow this beautiful creature. I love this waist that protected my little one for 9 months. I love these arms that get to hold him everyday. I love this life that I've been given. Now don't get me wrong I know I need to and am actively trying to get in better shape. But not to be skinny, or prettier. To be healthy. To be here for Jude as long as possible. Like I said Alan has always loved me. I feel that love and I know it will always be there. But it is a completely different love then the love I see in my little boy. Between the two of them I'm sure to succeed in this amazing life.